Not Immediately Clear Does Not Mean Wrong Part I

I have pulled two readings for myself in the last month that just don't make sense, and I could not figure out what the lesson, or how to apply it to my life.

The first was this one from Dec 3:

First of all, I don't even remember the question, but I think actually that will help me get clarity. I will often pull a spread that has nothing to do with what I'm after, but still makes sense in some other aspect of my life that actually has higher priority.

9 Pentacles Rev: Self-worth, over-investment in work, hustling
7 Pentacles: Long-term view, sustainable results, perseverance, investment
8 Cups: Disappointment, abandonment, withdrawal, escapism

At first I could see how being obsessed with work and material gain can lead to disappointment and giving up, but I was not sure how it fit with me right now. In the two jobs previous to this I definitely hustled my ass off and was not rewarded fairly. I got major burnout. Yes I was disappointed and I quit both jobs.

I love the job I have now, but I do engage in an inappropriate amount of escapism. I have a lot of down time that I'm not leveraging appropriately and I feel a bit guilty about it. I think it's likely this reading is tapping me on the shoulder and reminding me to find that balance. I am not under pressure to hustle and grind, but that doesn't mean I can shirk.

Continue to Part II...

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