Notes on the spread: At this time, I was reading all cards as upright using the descriptions per the guide book. I found the book to be over-simplified so I am re-analyzing it using the definitions from Holistic Tarot by Benebell Wen. I also applied past, present, and future states to cards 2, 3, and 4.
1: Overall situation: Two of Swords: stalemate, difficult choice, indecision, between a rock and a hard place. Deliberating strengths and weaknesses but each option is equal. Ultimately, the choice made will be the right one.
My husband was gung-ho for selling our house, buying a van, and living on the road as a way to pay off our student loans and his credit cards. Technically, I can work from wherever I want, and that's part of the reason I took my current job. But when it came down to getting the house ready to sell, I felt paralyzed. Something was telling me I was going against the grain. I didn't want to do uproot my life, but I got swept up in my hubby's enthusiasm and it sounded really good at first. Our lack of progress on the house was frustrating him and I felt the conflict building.
2: Contributing factor (past): Cooperation and harmony, soul mates, collaboration.
My husband and I love and respect each other, and we have a solid foundation of working through our problems and moving forward together.
3: Contributing factor (present): Knight of Wands: A fiery, hasty, impetuous person who likes to stir conflict and has difficulty finishing what they start. Hot-headed and immature. Individualistic with irrepressible enthusiasm. A tendency for drama.
This card is 100% my husband! At least 100% what I thought of him in relation to this "big idea."
4: Contributing factor (possible outcome): The Hanged Man: Self-sacrifice, suspension. The Seeker is right, even though it may make others unhappy. Possessing knowledge that resonates with the divine. There is a greater good at stake.
As summer turned to fall, we missed our best market opportunity to sell, and he wasn't as fired up about getting out of the house. He also cooled on the idea of living on the road with no permanent residence.
Fast forward 6 months and we found a better solution for paying down our debt while preserving our home and security. Hubby has done some traveling for work and found out it's not all he thought it would be. In fact, if we had hit the road, I probably would have lost my job because it's entirely online, and his internet access and wireless has been terribly spotty. He's still going to travel for work, but he can be more selective because we are keeping home base. I love my little house and being close to my mom and siblings, and I don't think I will ever be able to give that up.
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