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I recently began practicing tarot again after a 20 year hiatus. I used to bring my trusty deck to parties and lay out a Celtic Cross for anyone who was interested. Women have told me they still recall back to some of the things I told them and how the reading played out in their lives. I was pretty good.

Lately I've been having difficulty making decisions, and feeling generally adrift in the world. I changed employers after 11 years at one company, and while there are loads of perks at my new company, I'm experiencing a kind of corporate culture shock. Meanwhile, my restless husband has caught some kind of mid-life crisis and wants to sell the house and live in a van. Preferably down by the river 🙄

I got a couple new decks for Xmas and started digging in. I thought it would be like riding a bike; it's not. Apparently "these days" (that phrase makes me feel way too old), people don't read the upside-down cards in any different way, they read them all upright. Wrong. Absolute gibberish until I got a book that included reverse card meanings, then everything became clear. Just like magic.

Speaking of magic... don't mistake me for the stereotypical crystals-and-spells lady. I'm well-grounded in the real world, logic, evidence. When I use the tarot, I am fully cognizant of the fact that many cards have similarities to each other, and that the shuffling and spreads produce a random arrangement of cards on the table. Even so, it's an exercise that shifts my mind to consider blind spots in my decision making process, or think of new solutions. In its simplest form, it's a meditation that gives perspective.

The future is never certain. I don't make predictions. But I can't deny the synchronicity between the cards and my queries. The way they stitch together a cohesive story that mirrors my past and present life makes me wonder if there's merit to the predictions. After a few particularly striking readings, I decided to keep a journal to document my readings and my learning. If it helps you in the process, good karma for me! 😉

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