Cristini P's Tarot Journal

I pulled a second reading on Stability or adventure? when I was feeling more on the "adventure" side. 1: Heart of the Matter: 4 Swords Upright: Recovery period, recuperation after a warring state. Seeker has a secret weapon, but may not know it. Hubby and I had been constantly bickering about stupid crap; bills, chores, the dog, and I just wanted a break! 2: Immediate Obstacles: High Priestess Upright: Intuition, premonition. Spirituality, psychic energy. Keeping secrets. Mysterious. I couldn't talk to my family about it because I wasn't supposed to tell them we might sell the house and live out of a van. I felt like I couldn't see the forest for the trees, my gut feelings were obscured. 3: Past Influences: The Devil Reversed: Resistance to negative forces, freedom from bondage. Detachment from unhealthy influence, but feeling defeated. I got sober a number of years ago and got pretty good at not getting sucked into other people's drama, but it r...

Notes on the spread: At this time, I was reading all cards as upright using the descriptions per the guide book. I found the book to be over-simplified so I am re-analyzing it using the definitions from Holistic Tarot by Benebell Wen. I also applied past, present, and future states to cards 2, 3, and 4. 1: Overall situation: Two of Swords: stalemate, difficult choice, indecision, between a rock and a hard place. Deliberating strengths and weaknesses but each option is equal. Ultimately, the choice made will be the right one. My husband was gung-ho for selling our house, buying a van, and living on the road as a way to pay off our student loans and his credit cards. Technically, I can work from wherever I want, and that's part of the reason I took my current job. But when it came down to getting the house ready to sell, I felt paralyzed. Something was telling me I was going against the grain. I didn't want to do uproot my life, but I got swept up in my hubby's ent...

I recently began practicing tarot again after a 20 year hiatus. I used to bring my trusty deck to parties and lay out a Celtic Cross for anyone who was interested. Women have told me they still recall back to some of the things I told them and how the reading played out in their lives. I was pretty good. Lately I've been having difficulty making decisions, and feeling generally adrift in the world. I changed employers after 11 years at one company, and while there are loads of perks at my new company, I'm experiencing a kind of corporate culture shock. Meanwhile, my restless husband has caught some kind of mid-life crisis and wants to sell the house and live in a van. Preferably down by the river 🙄 I got a couple new decks for Xmas and started digging in. I thought it would be like riding a bike; it's not. Apparently "these days" (that phrase makes me feel way too old), people don't read the upside-down cards in any different way, they read them all uprig...