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Death of a Friend

 A boyfriend from high school died a couple years ago and I only just found out. For the last several years he would post on FB for his sobriety anniversary and I hadn’t seen anything so I went to his profile and saw… “heavenly birthday” greetings from last year?!?! 


No announcement on his profile, no obit, not even an open post on his wife’s, kids’, mom’s, or brother’s pages. I did some internet sleuthing and all I found was a rejected bankruptcy filing from 2 years ago for $3000 of debt. His last profile pic he looked sick so he could have had liver issues, cancer, anything. 


I was deeply infatuated with this dude and am feeling really gutted. I decided to pull a mini-cross spread to get some intuitive insight but it’s really not comforting šŸ˜¢



6 card mini cross

Mystic Cats Tarot 


1: subject/person

King of Cups Rv

Prone to moodiness or depression but emotionally self-aware. 

Yep. 


2: obstacle/challenge

Judgement 

Higher calling, life purpose, letting go of self-judgement. 

This tracks in terms of 12-step recovery (which we had in common).


3 (top): spirit

Ace of Pentacles

Beginning to build spiritual wealth. 

*How do you interpret Ace of Pents in terms of spirit?


4 (bottom): body

The Lovers

A strong relationship and physical healing. 

He seemed happy to be reunited with the mother of his kids. 


5 (left): mind or circumstances 

5 of Pentacles Rv 

Overcoming financial difficulties

Spooky accurate considering the court record I found. 


6 (right): outcome/conclusion

Disappointment, regret, pessimism. 

This card hurt my heart. 


It’s like he was working so hard to put his life together, was feeling great, but then hit a hard turn with finances and maybe his health. I hate to think he left this life with a broken heart šŸ’” šŸ˜­

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