Cristini P's Tarot Journal

 Q: What can I do to better support my spouse’s new business idea? (Housewives Tarot, of course) 5 of Cups: failure, pessimism Page of Cups Rv: new ideas, doubts, creative block 8 of Cups: disappointment, giving up, fantasy Clarifier: Page of Pentacles: opportunity, skill development, manifestation Rather than answering how I can help, the spread displays my general attitude about his gazillion hobbies and spending too much money on expensive things he will get bored of right away and never use again. I am the one who is pessimistic, doubtful. I am worried he’s buying just to buy, has big ideas with no follow-through.  The last card, Page of Pents, I pulled as a clarifier. It seemed to assure me that my spouse really does see photography as a financial opportunity. He’s dedicated hours and hours to learning the equipment, software, industries, and other topics. He is really trying to manifest this reality and make the leap to self-employment via services using this equipment. ...

This is a reading trying to connect with my 3x great grandma Delinda Fairchild. 2 of Cups: I believe this is showing me that we’re “birds of a feather” and have similar character. It’s two very different birds enjoying the same food and the same environment or ecosystem. Most interestingly, one bird is black, one bird is white; I am white and Delinda was black. A little on the nose, but it struck me. King of Swords: She was a smart and clever woman and had an attitude of authority, a matriarch. The crow is perched on a grave with angel wings against a smoky background: a spirit who has passed on. There are 3 hourglasses: hourglasses normally represent time but I don’t know how it applies. They hold a fish, a heart, and a sword, which I perceive as the gut feeling, the emotions, and the mind working in harmony. Maybe she was intuitive, too? 4 of Pents Rv: I get a sense she was on the defensive a lot of her life. From the ONE vital record I found of her, she lived in rural New York, wido...

  4 of Wands: Joy Seriously?? 🙄😂

  I splurged and signed up for an online course on ways to make money on my art. I pulled 3 cards to get a sense of what I can expect and if this will be a helpful course.  Knight of Wands: Creative *action*, exercises, stuff to do, etc. Could also refer to my being impulsive jumping on this course! But I’m definitely inspired and want to learn new things.  King of Cups: I need to check my expectations and control my emotions and keep an open mind. I’ll admit I’m walking into this with raging imposter syndrome 😅 Ace of Swords R: This course might bring clarity to the business / marketing side of things and might have me rethinking some things.  What are you picking up here? [BTW 3rd Edition of Northern Animal Tarot is perfection!! Slightly smaller cards are easier to shuffle, the linen is finer-grain than 1st Ed and the colors are so vibrant!!]

This is SUPER long, involves a trigger warning for potential suicide, a 90-yr old tragedy/controversy, and reading for someone deceased. I was compelled to pull this reading to gain insight into an unknowable situation. [Tarot Disassembled by Jennifer Cooper Steidley] When I was a kid there was a story my great-gran told us about an uncle who got drunk and fell into the pig pen and died and the pigs ate him. Pretty gruesome, but it turned out to be euphemistic for something far worse that we accidentally uncovered decades later. Back about ten years ago, my mom, her cousin, and I traveled to the area our recent ancestors lived to visit their town, see the old farm, cemetery, historical society etc. to build up our family tree. We stumbled on a big mystery! One bread crumb led to another and we ultimately compiled news stories, court records, talked to a local historian, and even got the coroner’s report… Here is the summary of this tale: My great-grandpa’s brother Melvin got in trouble...

  No, really, I can’t remember what this reading was for….  Defensive barrier A warning or alert Something cut short or ending prematurely (Mildred Payne’s Secret Pocket Oracle)

Death: I will be mourning the “loss” of all the money we saved up. But rather than a loss, this will be a transformation into a new phase of our life and we will be free from the chains of indebtedness.  5 Cups Rv: Feeling regret over mistakes or resentful of lack of opportunity to do this earlier. But looking back to Death this is also a transformation into accepting the past and learning lessons.  Justice: I did the crime and now I do the time. The money needs to be paid no matter what and there is no escaping the long arm of the law. It may not be FAIR but it is JUST.  Update 8/26/23 Death: the loans were erased! 5 Pents R: I’m out of debt! No more going broke paying the loans! I can finally save for retirement! Justice: I’m the one getting Justice after paying on these loans for over 20 years!

  You: 3 of Pents: You have a good network of support and help, you’re restarting your life and making changes. Issue: 7 of Pents Rv: You’re living for today and not feeling very satisfied. Conscious: The Empress: You’re feeling much more like your old self, regaining some confidence, feeling vital and sexy again. Unconscious: Strength: You’re drawing on strength you didn't know you had to get through this difficult transition out of your marriage. Limitation: 5 of Pents: There is an attitude of scarcity. You’re worried you won’t have enough money to support yourself and Hannah. Outcome: The Hermit: Once you get past the initial upheaval you’ll have time for soul-searching and introspection. You might need to spend some time alone to decompress. Modified Celtic Cross w/ Tarot Disassembled 

  You ever have that thing where Tarot just reflects back your question with no additional insight?? 🤪 I canceled an endoscopy appt today after reading up on the procedure, the risks, and looking at reviews of the clinic on every possible portal. In the end, there were just TOO many red flags on this place. I decided to do a reading to see if I made the right decision.  What I see:  10 wands: I ”collected” all the info.  Emperor: ultimately I have the final say about what I choose to do with my body.  4 cups: but now I’m feeling self doubt.  GEE THANKS 😂 Housewives Tarot! Very important: this was *not* a reading for medical advice, just specifically about this clinic feeling shady to me. I was asking about the *facility* NOT the *procedure*! I would remind everyone that while Tarot is an amazing tool to help us navigate the tricky parts of life, when it comes to medical decisions and care, it's best to work with medical professionals.  Part of that i...